Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Spit

Have you ever heard the phrase, 'I'm so mad I could spit?' I'm going to spit...I understand the phrase now.
Trust is a big thing with me. I can be too trusting of other people on a superficial level. But if I'm going to let you into my life in an intimate way, its hard for me to trust you. Its even hard for me to trust God sometimes...trust is HUGE!
My trust has been betrayed by a family member and it is so hurtful. I'm angry and sad and disappointed and even a little guilty for ever trusting that what I say in confidence would be kept in confidence. I feel naive and silly. And spittin' mad.
But what do I do? The Bible says I should confront those that I am upset with so that I don't let it build up before forgiving them. But how do I do that without screaming and yelling right now? I don't think I can.
Please pray for me to say the right things and to be forgiving.

4 comments:

Khris said...

"Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near."
Phillippians 4:5

Miss MyLastName said...

Sorry, this doesn't really have anything to do with your post, but I have to tell you what I experienced this weekend: GOD IS FAITHFUL. I really love the Lord.

I was so tempted to do something this weekend. I wanted to do it, but I didn't want to do it, so I just told Him to take it away. You know what He did? He didn't take the temptation itself away, but He revealed something that took away my desire of the temptation. And then you know what He did? He had one of my housemates come up to me out of the blue and read 1 Corinthians 10:13 to me: "No temptation has taken you, except that which is common to man; AND GOD IS FAITHFUL, who will not allow that you be tempted beyond what you are able, but will, with the temptation, also make the way out, that you may be able to endure it."

Wow. Thank you, Lord.

And thank YOU, Mandee. You are very sweet, and accepting of me in or out of Bible School. I appreciate that. :-)

Mandee said...

Sarah, you impress me so! You are REAL...that is what I appreciate the most! You don't pretend to be perfect as so many Christians do, but you do really Love the Lord and you aren't afraid to say it! You aren't afraid to say that you aren't perfect either! You're so cool, Vern!

Miss MyLastName said...

I'm a little too genuine - that's my problem. :-)