When I woke up this morning, I opened my John Piper Devotional app on my phone and read this verse.
"Your sins are forgiven." Luke 7:48
I've struggled with guilt in the past. I've given God a lot of reasons to forgive me. Actually, I've given myself a lot of reasons to need it. But I knew this verse wasn't speaking to me about any of the "the big ones" from my past when I read it this morning.
Step one - ask for forgiveness from my sins of gluttony and laziness.
In order to ask for forgiveness for something, I have to admit that it has been an issue. Those are embarrassing things to admit.
I am slothful.
I am gluttonous.
I have made food and laziness an idol in my life. That sounds so ridiculous coming out of my mouth, but it is the truth. It's not just about food - it's about what I'm letting control me. I've made food and lounging my golden calf. I have come to idolize both.
Father, please forgive my selfishness. Forgive the way I have treated this body that you created in an abusive way with food and lack of exercise. Forgive the way I have taken the health and abilities you've given me for granted. Forgive my self-pity, vanity, and idolatry. Forgive me for checking-out of this beautiful life you've made for me. Help me to see every day as an opportunity to truly live for that day. Create a new heart that desires health and wellness. Help me to think of You rather than treats. Help me feel sorrowful enough that I won't want to sin this way anymore. Help me take care of myself in a way that betters my ability to share Your love with others.