Thursday, October 14, 2004

Who Am I?

Listening to: Zoe Group: Who Am I?
LOVE love love this song, Vern!
So...I am excitedly peaceful today...God talked to me last night. HE didn't actually speak...I didn't hear a voice, but I had a thought that I didn't think myself. I've experienced this communication before, but only through my journaling. I've written things that were surprising to me...maybe inspired by the Holy Spirit. Its awesome every time it happens.
Last night's experience was different though. I was at church and Garry was praying. He paused to allow us to speak up with more intentions if we had any. The room was quiet and peaceful...all of us deep in prayer. My thoughts went to a specific area in which I have been struggling and an area where several other have been praying for me as well. And then I had a thought, only I didn't think it...3 clear words. I felt peaceful and excited at the same time. I squeezed Ken's hand because I didn't want to jump up and yell, "Yes, Lord, I'm listening!" Although, I believe my church family would have jumped up with me and prayed. I wasn't sure if this 'thought' was an answer or what...I was a little confused, but hopeful and faithful.
Later in the evening, I talked to Ken about it. I didn't give him every detail, but while I was talking I had another 3 word thought...that I didn't think! This one was clearer...I understood. This is so cool! I can't believe it...I mean, I can because God can do whatever he wants, I just didn't expect him to do this. I thought I would have to pray and think and pray some more before I got an answer. Sure didn't expect it to be so easy. Maybe that is my reward for trusting Him. I love Him!!!! He is so awesome!
OK...so, now I have to figure out what to do with his communication to me. How do I handle it and where do I go with it? I'm not worried at all...He is taking care of me and He will make sure I do the right thing. I am so honored that He is working in my life this way...I want to make Him proud of me.
Here I am rambling again...that's it for now. If you're reading this, please say a prayer for me...pray that I will accept direction and guidance from Him and that I will always be tuned in to his voice.
I'll be praying for you too!

2 comments:

Miss MyLastName said...

I'm glad you just shared all of that. :-)

I am having a *gigantic* (huge, MASSIVE) struggle with the Lord right now ("No, Lord. Let me do what *I* want!" - stubborn, stubborn, stubborn), and I feel somewhat encouraged....

Mandee said...

Sarah, I'm so glad that something I said could help in any way! That is the work of God, not me. I'll be praying for you...